I Just Don’t Care That Much

When I visited Bali (as a fake tourist), I got called from my old friend (but old nemesis too), she asked me to come by since I emailed her that I will be in Bali before. Ha ha…, I thought and still think it was funny I’ve visited her house, meeting her parents and families. We are – say if I ever has a single nemesis in seven worlds, it would be her – as Indonesia people would called “musuh bebuyutan”, even tough I can’t denying years before that tragedy, she was the single guardian of my heart, my best friend, my dearest & trusted one. And she was the only candidate who capable of ruining my lovely life as single happy gentlemen :p

Well, this time I shall not talk about this model & idol, but a line of our conversation…

She looked in to my eyes and asked, “I heard you never going to temple and praying every holiday? You should go to temple every time you have a chance. You can’t be like this, you know.”

I just smiled and nodded smoothly and slowly, just resembling myself to the Penguins of Madagascar on the last scene of Madagascar’s first movie – “just wave and smile boy…, just wave and smile…”

She must be heard some gossip about my slackness for a faith, haha, especially when someone read this article in Bahasa, the gossip shall spread very fast 😀

Everybody who knew me for some time would see that I have no particular care for such things so-called God or Religion. That is why some pals would call me as an atheist – a joke that I’m happy would joke them back – well, I just don’t care that much.

Most people afraid if they don’t pray good enough according to they believe or their faith. They fear if they don’t call God’s name, they afraid if God left them behind, or they make God disappointed. So they who surprised by my answer I just don’t care that much would ask back much, much questions or they would keep silent.

Why would I? Will God mad at me if I don’t give a care enough? Then God nothing better than my beloved mom, who never insane when I had a flaw in consideration of her.

Or should I pray to God to ask for something? Well, let me see, hmm…, I really don’t have anything to ask for seriously. Food, there are two apples for breakfast, Tahu, Tempe, and spinach for lunch, and I rarely got supper, well I still can find some eggs. And the same goes for clothes and shelters. So what should I ask for more, even I have more than I need to live?

And others would tell me to pray that I thanks for all that, because believe it, God provides it for humans. Ah…, well, I just don’t care that much. If there is something I would do for thanking are, stop polluting my beloved planet, care for garbage, help promote green world, promoting family planning – the otherwise human race will start starving soon because of our own greed for resources.

I am I wrong if I say people are funny when they pray that God can provide “a bit more,” and keep the stockpile intact, while they didn’t stop to corrupt the earth?

I am I wrong if I say people are funny when they pray that God can keep their life a life of good, harmony, and peaceful life, while tomorrow they yelled full of hatred to others, deceiving their closest one to get some more pennies? Or punch people who opposed their faith in the of God just as free as God just has given them right to did it for the right thing?

One the time comes, and I am going to be needed, if God really does exist, God, oneself shall call me, well, I think I have no reason to refuse, since that kind of my characters. If that happens, it’s mean my time already over, well…, Every living thing shall meet the same. There is nothing to worry about, just wave and smile boy… just wave and smile.

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