A Cahya Legawa's Les pèlerins au-dessus des nuages

This afternoon, I spent hours for my last rode on this old capital, just passed some memorable streets and buildings. I no longer know, whether this day belong to dry or rainy season, all I know that I wish to see all those memorable intersections and corners once more, just for once more.

I left so many memories back there, smile, laugh, tears, everything for this past seven and a half years. It is a strange mix between happiness and sadness, between acceptances and negations.

Somehow I wish the time turns back once more, to the very moment when I said I love you.

And I know, with my condition right now, I’ll lost them pretty soon, soon enough for a couple of eyes to blink.

And those whole stories which reside within my memory shall sink to the unknown deep, on their last resting place, until the end of time.

Time already takes you, world already hides you, and now I’m not even sure my mind can not even hold you tight. How still can I say to myself that I love you.

I rode the winds, and they remembered me the place where were night full of sparkling little humble smiles, and where were the day became of vast glittering song of happiness and understanding.

Old Antique Table

On the last street, I was whispering to myself, “Now, I can say my goodbye – perhaps.”

I am leaving my memories here, in this old capital, perhaps – someday in future – I get a chance of returning, even when I can’t remember a single thing, what I left behind shall lead me – since they were made by hearts.

I am leaving, I am alone, and still I am in love. Yes, it makes me feel like being a human now.

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Commenting 101: “Be kind, and respect each other” // Bersikaplah baik, dan saling menghormati (Indonesian) // Soyez gentils et respectez-vous les uns les autres (French) // Sean amables y respétense mutuamente (Spanish) // 待人友善,互相尊重 (Chinese) // كونوا لطفاء واحترموا بعضكم البعض (Arabic) // Будьте добры и уважайте друг друга (Russian) // Seid freundlich und respektiert einander (German) // 親切にし、お互いを尊重し合いましょう (Japanese) // दयालु बनें, और एक दूसरे का सम्मान करें (Hindi) // Siate gentili e rispettatevi a vicenda (Italian)

18 tanggapan

  1. Avatar Orin

    I do love this writing, as always.

  2. Avatar Agung Pushandaka

    The old capital? Do you mean Jogja? Where are you going then?

    I have so many memories in this city. Full of loves. I’m lucky can feel it till now even I left the city since 2008. I hope I will feel it forever.

    1. Avatar Cahya

      Mas Pushandaka, ah.., something like that :).

  3. Avatar Bonnie

    when you look back and sense nothing but happiness and lessons learned, thats the most beautiful feeling ever 🙂

  4. Avatar indobrad

    congrats, Cahya. you have passed a life’s test 🙂

  5. Avatar rioseto

    the ‘paing’ (bitterness) the ‘legi’ (sweetness) in the journey of our life, are all beautiful; open the book again then we learn, then we know… how become wise.

  6. Avatar tina latief

    Somehow I wish the time turns back once more, to the very moment when I said I love you.

    COME…
    said it again….

    1. Avatar Cahya

      Tina, it won’t be the same ;).

  7. Avatar ladeva

    I assumed that you was said. May be I got wrong sign in this journal 😛

  8. Avatar ladeva

    Don’t be sad Cahya. You can created your new memories in your new place 🙂

    1. Avatar Cahya

      Who said I am sad :D.

  9. Avatar kishandono

    Makasih pak cahya sudah mampir ke blog saya dan menjadi komentator pertama setelah sekian lama mati suri

  10. Avatar Vicky Laurentina

    This post however drives me shivering 😀

    Welcome, dr Cahya. Are you leaving Jogja very soon?

    1. Avatar Cahya

      Thanks dr. Vicky.

      Hmm… I think I am leaving early in next February, since my scholarship already stopped, I don’t think I won’t survive any longer here :D.

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